January 12, 2013

• Oh well, oh well. Guess I’ll see you in hell

  

  I guess what scares me the most is knowing that at any moment, You could rip my heart out of my chest, tear it in pieces, throw it on the ground, then stomp all over it. And I’d just pick it up, and hand it back to you.

  

  It turns out that sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful, but they are the only way to figure out who you really are.

  

  Do the one thing you think you cannot do. Fail at it. Try again. Do better the second time. The only people who never tumble are those who never mount the high wire. This is your moment. Own it.

  

  No matter what, you deserve to smile. Don’t let anyone take that away from you.

   

  

  Let’s run away to a place where the air tastes like rain and the sun shines like Sunday morning. You bring your laugh and I’ll bring my sense of humor, and we can taste the days, one week after another.

  

  Sometimes, you just need to be alone. Sometimes, not even your best friend needs to know.

  

  Why do we find it so hard to let go? Why do we have such a difficulty accepting the inevitable, dealing with what’s right in front of us – why can’t we get over something we can do nothing to change? I guess we all just hope too much. Hope for the best, hope that he’s still holding on when the truth is he’s long gone, up, up, up and away. There’s a fine line between faith and naivety, sometimes we’re too in love to see that line and so blindly cross it.

  

  We lose people we love because they are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find somebody else. It is a simple fact that is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stupid to let go.

  

  In a relationship, the power lies with the person who cares least.

   

  

  I’m done looking. I want someone to find me.

   

  

  Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll never have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever though possible. Sometimes, change is too much to bear. But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life

   

  

  Nothing has turned out as we expected. It never does. Life’s under no obligation to give us what we expect. We take what we get and are thankful it’s no worse than it is.

  

  You can’t tell someone you love them and then change your mind. That’s not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them. Isn’t there a part of you that thinks of him for no reason? They’ll always be in the back of your mind. And no matter how much you love someone else, you’ll always love them too.

  

  When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.

  

  So here it is. My walls are up because the last time I pulled them down, someone came along and messed me up. And I.. I didn’t think I’d ever get out of it, not whole anyway. And when I did, when I finally found myself okay after so many tears I thought, no-one is worth this. So I put the walls back up, higher than high thinking I would not let anyone ever knock them down again. But then you came along. Now I’m not sure of anything. Is it worth the risk, to let the walls down, to take that leap of faith; to allow myself to fall, with you, tell me is it worth it?

  

  When your life is pulling you in every direction, take a deep breath and forget where you belong. Just think of where you wanna be.

  

  I want things to be more than okay. For you to say what you mean & mean it. I want this tension, this awkwardness to be gone. I don’t want you, that ship sailed. I just want something other than this.

  

  Fate exists, but it can only take you so far. Because once you’re there, its up to you to make it happen.

  

  You know, sometimes we make decisions about our life and they feel like the right decision at the time. No, they are the right decisions at the time. But that doesn’t mean they’ll be right decisions forever, and you know what I’ve realized as I’ve gotten older? There isn’t a definite right and wrong anyway. Sometimes we do what seems wrong but we have good reasons for doing it so it’s not so wrong after all.

  

  I’m doing fine. Just sometimes I think of you. Like when I roll over and you’re not there. Or a stranger’s hand brushes mine. Or a fleeting memory photographed in my mind pops up. Those are the worst. That’s when I can smell you, feel you. It’s crippling really. But I’m fine

   

  

  Even ten years and twenty boys later, I’m still going to have a little thing for you, because some things never change.

  

  It’s amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside of you and you can just walk around and nobody has any idea

  

  In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what you have the, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

  

  If I’ve learned anything in life, it is that sometimes things get in your path and you have a choice: you can either smash right into them, or you can adjust and move around,but you have to do one or the other in order to move forward.

  

  We all find ourselves in complicated situations.There is no relationship which isn’t defined with a complicated label. Yes, there are beautiful times full of sunshine and the purest of love, but those times do pass. The bad times pass, as well. Relationships are ever-changing, there is no perfect one. What makes a relationship perfect is your magnetic attraction of souls, the layers of each other that you’ve matched up on, and the possibility to take on”it’s complicated” together, as a team, instead of alone

   

  

  I miss you always. Even when we don’t talk. Even when you think I don’t give a crap. Even when I’m the asshole you’d always wanted me to be, the asshole I told you I’d be. I miss you then. I miss you all the time. Everyday you stick in my mind like glue,or a scar, or a wound you like to show off your most prized possession. I miss you now, I miss you always.

   

  

   

   

   

   

   

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